great i appear to be going backwards

I took the plunge and bought a wacom cintiq, partly because of my love of computers and mostly because i have the time now the children have grown up to start drawing again. However, i am not finding it a pleasant experience! Each step forward appears to be followed by 30 steps backwards. Presently I am sitting here sobbing, after trying some of the tutorials i downloaded from this site i realise just how difficult it is to get to grips with using a wacom. I am enjoying it though, when not sobbing into my keyboard.